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[Flashira]

When I discovered the internet in 2010, I was fascinated. It led me to discovering a lot of interesting things (especially electronic music). In mid-2010s, I began to partake in several online communities (with BFDI wiki being one of the first). I acted stupid at the time, but I would later grow into a better person, learning from my mistakes.

Towards the end of 2018, I saw the news that Tumblr decided to "ban" adult content. This caused a lot of backlash towards Tumblr, and I was one of those people who harshly criticized this decision. Little did I know, this would mark the sign that the internet would begin to get worse and worse.

The fall of major social networks (especially Twitter) and art platforms (especially DeviantArt) towards the end of 2022 took a severe toll on my mental health and made me slowly lose my motivation more and more. And people denouncing and even insulting the platforms they once were a part of didn't really help either.

I even tried one of these alternative social network sites some people suggested, but I couldn't really feel it at all. It did not have the same spirit those major social network sites and art platforms once had. So I quit not really long after.

All of this became so negatively overwhelming for me, I became less social, and my depression got worse and worse into the point where I uncontrollably screamed several times, even at public. There were even times where I ended up crying. The internet community ended up feeling more and more like my personal hell.

And recently, I've decided: I'm retiring my public online presence, along with creating art and music. I no longer have any motivation to continue these. My Twitter and DeviantArt, along with my Newgrounds, will remain as archives. Most of my YouTube channels (with the exception of my channel for lower quality stuff, I just won't commenting from that channel from now on) will be abandoned, with my main channel having all videos unlisted. My Tumblr and Mastodon will also be abandoned, as I haven't been feeling these sites much. And my Discord will go inactive too.

For those who were waiting for my newer art and music, I'm sorry for disappointing you all. I also had more ambitious plans in my mind, but I don't think they will happen at all. I'm probably going to need excessive amounts of therapy after this. I deeply apologize for not being able to fight any longer.

Again, I'm truly sorry. I surrender. </3

Flashira (a.k.a. TheOtherGuest2 / LordOtherGuest / OthestTheAutist / Flashy / Dumb-Brained / FlashTrance / Enigmind / szabanH)

No tl;dr. Please read this entire thing.

[Flashira]

And yes, this means I'm no longer administrating TMA.

[looper231]

Read this message with a grain of salt. I may be speaking as someone who has beat depression and asocial life, but not all cases are similar to one another. I may not understand the significant details that makes your case different, but I feel like I want to speak up about all this.

I could go on to great detail and a lot of words, but to say it basically: Relying on internet to become your new primary social place is a bad idea and is something that will cause you more harm than good.

One thing is certain: You shouldn't neglect your mental health at all. Not only it will destroy you, but also affect others around you and no, I'm not talking about strangers here. I'm sure there are people who genuinely care and worry about you. Hell, even I was worried when all this happened.

My best wishes to you, Flashira. I hope you come out of all this a happier person